(Basic summary of my Friday night/Saturday morning)
YOU caused your parents to lose trust in you. it was YOUR decision to lie to them. and you cannot blame it on me because i was simply a prop. sure i was incentive but it was ultimately your decision to lie.
so if you were in my shoes, would you have broken up after 3 weeks?…on your birthday?
better 3 weeks than 8 months. i would not have lied to my parents and would have broken up after 3 weeks. the pain after 8 months is far greater.
(it’s nice to know you would have done the same for me?) interesting.
I forgive you. so…why did you ask me out if you knew that your parents would disagree?
pressure, emotions, dreams, all that jazz. and i don’t regret any of it. because of the joy and good times we’ve had.
I will always remember those times. I hope you will too.
Yes i will, but wait…none of that would have happened without the lying. oh wait but again it’s my fault my parents don’t trust me anymore. all mine. lying in exchange for good times. and i’m sorry it hurts in the longrun. next time i wont sacrifice if i know you wouldn’t have done the same.
I hate how life is always a compromise. but that’s the way the cookie crumbles.
you’re being punished now
because I was tired of being punished to keep you from suffering.
relationship IS sacrifice. I get it.
you did everything you could and maybe you’ll think nothing’s ever enough.
I don’t feel the same. and that is something no one will be able to change. despite the hardest effort. you did everything fine. it will definitely be more than enough for someone someday. who knows why my emotions changed…I’m still sorting that out.
but for now, there’s my answer, and I hope you see. I was being punished too. and right now for blood, for family, for friends, for sleep, for grades, for peace, for calm, for opportunities, for many things, it wasn’t worth the compromise, to me.